Hey everyone!!! So yesterday as a family Dustin and I with the two kiddies Emma and jack went on a adventure to enjoy the crisp air and the season. We started with breakfast at the local cafe we love the old creamery and proceeded to ponder on what we should do. You see I don't get a lot of weekends off so this was a big opportunity for us.
We decided that we were going to the craft store to get fall and Halloween decor. Then stopped at the hardware store to get rakes and bags. We stopped at a coffee shop had some hot chocolate and ice cream, I know strange but its what they wanted :) and this was about the kids.
As we were on our way home both were so excited that jack passed out and Emma literally wouldn't stop talking. When we got home I put jack down and Emma and I started on all the lawn decor and putting leaves in the bags. Dad was sweeping the lawn to get all the leaves faster, mostly to play! We still have a lot of leaves to take care of. I can't tell u what kind of memories we made yesterday it was amazing and almost tear worth of happiness. Here are some pictures from yesterday I took to share with u :) enjoy and I hope that your fall is going as we'll as ours. We are finally home and on the verge of all our first holidays as homeowners.
Everything is for these kids and I can't tell u how lucky I am! They are mine and Dustin's world and giving them what I really never had is suck a blessing to me! They will forever call this home and never feel left behind or not welcome. They will always know they can come home, and be safe. We will give them everything thing we can and Never hold back as life is to short to wait for tomorrow :)
Friday, September 28, 2012
I am writing this as a confession to all those that I care about, that care about me, that I have lost or gained in the last year.
This last year has been a particularly adventurous one you could say. I don't know much, But I know this. I never knew who I was, I still don't but I am finally learning and its a path I wouldn't change for anything. But my whole life I have felt like a fraud.
I grew up broken, and as a matter of fact I am still very broken and its taken years for me to admit this. By this I mean that everything that has happen to me has attested to this. From absence of a woman in my life to helping my dad raise my brothers, my step mother and the turmoils that I went through. I will never ask you to feel sorry or think more of me because I went through hardship as everyone does.
But this last year: I have learned more then I have in my whole life. I have grown and learned that being broken and not always knowing my path is who I am and sometimes 1/2 the fun. Also making me realize that I am loved JUST THE WAY THAT I AM.
Over the last year I have went from being a stay at home mother to a full time working one(part time now) to folding laundry and making dinner to being away from my husband and children that it has not changed me but opened my eyes. My husband and I bought a house and have realized the responsibility and the stress on us that has brought, but also show us how to be better parents and better for one another. I have went through some health problems and are still trying to figure them out.
Most of all, I found god, real love, friendships and mostly myself. I am not that multi Megan any more the one that pleases everyone. I am ME! That has come with some hardship as people realize that they may not like me, or don't get me any more and that is fine I am ok with that now. I am ok with not pleasing everyone around, not always having to be the best, the center and proving others that I am "cool" in lame tums.
I am me: I am a bit neurotic, I am crazy, I am bi-polar, I am social anxiety, I am asthma, I am a wife, mother, hard working, home owner. I am a best friend, I am my own worst enemy, I am blunt and honest and sometimes mean. I am god's child, and most I am confused most the time. But that is just a fraction of who I am. I am also loving, ambitious, talented, scared, closet singer and I am Megan and best version I can be. I know I may be going on and on but I needed to get this all out.
I have lost some people in my life this year, some by choice, some by the graces of god and some well some just left me. For that I am a stronger me. I am looking out for what matters, my children me and my husband. MY FAMILY. I have been so distracted my whole life I forgot to live it.
Posted by Megan Rockenbach at 1:50 PM
Thursday, May 17, 2012
Hi there all! I want to tell you that I am currently down 12lbs since my last update and cant be more thrilled!!!! Its going well and I even got into my pre-jack prego jeans and get this THERE BIG! I love it and am so proud of me.
Not only have I got this to look forward to but we bought a house and I got a job doing what I love.
Here are some pictures of my latest weight loss....
Posted by Megan Rockenbach at 3:03 PM